F**K you George W. and your troop surge!

Well.... This kind of goes along with last week's crap week... I couldn't bring myself to write about it though since i was a little too emotional at the time. I've hardly been able to talk about it since we found out. Where to start...

Well, first i guess i should explain to everyone how the military really works. When you sign up, you sign up for 4 years of active duty--most people know this part. What most people don't realize is that when you sign up, you also agree to 4 years of inactive duty. Meaning: most go about their daily lives as if their contract with the military is up....but in all actuality they can be recalled at any time during those 4 years of inactive duty if need be.
So last thursday, my bestie Jess and I were out and about getting some last minute things for the bachelorette party and her upcoming wedding. While browsing and playing endlessly with makeup in our Mecca (also known as Sephora) I recieved a call that drained every ounce of color from my face and left me gasping for air. Lar had just recieved a phone call from his mother delivering news of my ultimate present-day worst fear: Consideration for Reactivation orders.
So...that's where we stand now. Currently, Lar is awaiting tickets from the U.S. Government to fly to Kansas City, MO where he will meet before a committee. There they will i guess interview him and try to figure out if he is elligible for recall. It makes me so mad...Lar has definetly paid his debt to society, made his mark in assisting with this war. He has 3 deployments under his belt...he was among the first of the marines that went to iraq early 2003. He spent his 21st birthday as the official day the war began and has spent half his military career, 2 years, in Iraq. Not that I would wish this on anyone, but it makes me so mad that he's spent so much time over there and so many of his buddies did only 1 or 2 deployments! Why do they have to pick him? Just as we were getting our lives together and creating a normal dating relationship. I thought all the tears were behind me. I just can't stomach the idea of being alone, again. I hated playing 3rd wheel to many of my friends while he was gone, waiting all night...sleeping with my phone by my head on its loudest ring just hoping i'd get a phone call that night and dropping everything when i finally did. As if it couldnt get worse, it can....these deployment recalls are for much longer than normal marine deployments that last around 9 months. If he is deployed again it will be for 12-18 months. Just as sad is the fact that now my hottie military uniformed date will not be able to attend my bestie's wedding this weekend since he will be in Kansas City. So now im dateless, and sad. Please pray for us. I know Lar doesnt want to leave the life he's just settled into here. Thinking back to those long lonely days while Lar was deployed last time makes me sad, so im not sure i can handle another one, especially for so long! Lar's mom who underwent serious heart problems ( a rare virus that caused her heart to die and her to get a transplant), she can't handle the extra stress...she's already made it through 2 more deployments with him than i have, and I certainly know her health will take a toll worrying about him for so many more months. She just doesnt deserve that kind of added issues.
Please, again, keep us in your prayers. Pray, God willing, that Lar won't have to go through all of this, again.